Trust

10-08-2008


I am sitting her doodling on the graphics tablet (still no concrete webcomic stuff just yet so just hold onto your hats there) and got to thinking about trust.

Trust is one of those weird things I find. For some reason people tend to trust me. They will talk to me, get stuff off their chests, even confide in me. Content in the knowledge that what has just been said will never again be spoken. It is an odd little trick that I appear to have. I can't think of any real reason why a person would trust me, but I like that people do. I like to help people when and if I can. It gives me a nice feeling that I have helped bring a little good into the world, for however short a time it lasts.

Sadly I have trust issues. I can't seem to trust people too much. I keep a lot of my problems with me, they are mine after all. A problem shared is a problem halved, or so the saying goes, and yet I would rather not have to have another person carry my burden. I have never really figured out where this problem stems from. Is this ability, for want of a funky word, to have people trust me directly linked to my lack of trust with others?

I mean I trust my friends, but even that was no an instant trust, it was one that developed. It developed quickly of course, but it still took time.

To have that trust broken is not a nice thing. It is like being given the finger by somebody. Somebody you trusted to never give you the finger.

It's not that I mind not trusting people, I am an odd individual that can survive on his own quite well. It is the insult I guess, that you give your trust to a person and they think so little of such an enormous act on your part that they throw it back in your face.

It takes all sorts to make the world go round.

Blue_jester