Changes

05-04-2009


This is probably going to be a long one so sit down and enjoy, or don't.

I am just after writing my word limit for the day and before I kicked into a rewrite from my book I got to thinking about things. Lately life has been going strangely well for me. I won't go into the big details or the really personal ones (as per norm around here) but those directly knowing me will probably figure it all out.

Just as I am sitting here I am oddly confused by how well a particular aspect of my life is going these days. I am never one to sit and ponder why something is going good. I am one to presume that the world is going to go tits up very soon and not really just assume that everything is going to carry on at the same good pace indefinitely.

As I have pointed out before my concept of time is shockingly bad and over the years I have developed a habit of not living for the past or the future but for the moment. My life is a series of moments that I have strung together and will remember forever. For the last few weeks a lot of moments in my life have become really cool moments and are ones that I have enjoyed having and recalling later.

Yet here I sit expecting this good luck to just stop and return me to my good old self of bitterness. They say you can form a new habit in five days if you work hard at it, yet I can't seem to break the habit of a lifetime despite recent evidence to show me that I should at least consider it.

I should just plod along happy with the moments and not try and figure out how the hell I managed to get so many great ones to come along at the same time.

Maybe having so many good moments is habit forming as well, but sort of like a drug. You get used to the feeling and don't want to see that feeling or its source taken away. I was used to having an uncomplicated life, now it appears I prefer one with a little complication.

I don't like having to think, it makes the brains hurt.


Blue_jester


Tags: blog


Shortie | Mon, 24 Jan 11 14:49:01 +0000

&hearts

Shortie | Mon, 24 Jan 11 14:50:25 +0000

♥

Shortie | Mon, 24 Jan 11 14:53:21 +0000

Darn it, I was trying to do a wee heart. Will you delete all my comments from this? Silly me trying to be cute with code :) x

Leave a comment...

Name (required)